A conversation with Tiktok

Apologies for the lack of a Kitten Monday (AGAIN!) this week. Tiktok and I engaged in the quintessential teenage-girl activity during the holidays- a sleepover and a movie marathon.

I don't really feel comfortable calling her Tiktok. She may only be, in her own words "a shadow of what she used to be", but to me she is still Penny. She likes the same movies, the same music, still laughs at our injokes. She's still my best friend. She's Penny. the part of her she calls Penny, (or She, or Her) belongs to It. She's nothing more than a marionette now.

Speaking of Her, to Tiktok's puzzlement she has not taken the reins, as it were, for quite some time. Since she started reuploading the old posts to Time Waits, in fact. Although it's tempting to assume the best, my life hasn't really worked that way for a very long time.

I transcribed a particular conversations you lot might find interesting. It is as follows:

A: So why do you call yourself Tiktok?

T: She called me that, really. Because in the beginning all I was was the ticking. I couldn't do much else, just tick and tock and tick-tock some more. Back when she was Penny and I was nothing more than self-preservation, urging her to keep away, wake up, see Him for what he was, I was just the ticking. When she lost her identity, I gained mine. And for lack of anything else to call myself, I called myself Tiktok.

A: You've said you are to Penny what Waking!Ary is to m-

T: We're the only cases of Dreaming and Waking I know of, but I hope sincerely that-

A: You sound really weird using formal language.

T: I love you too, you're a great friend- I hope sincerely that splitting the Waking self from the Dreaming self completely to hinder Him from using you for his purposes is the worst case scenario.

A: Uh...what?

T: Okay, to put it shortly, stop referring to your Waking self as separate from yourself. She's still you. You can wake up and see things for what they really are, see things for what they really are. That's probably why the letters in your name are red when you are Awake. You're asserting, to yourself, that you are still you.

A: So Waking is basically some kind of freaky superpower?

T: Not really. From what I can see, most people who are involved Him Wake sooner or later. You're unusual in that even after Waking you still can still go back to Dreaming. That worries me.

A: So what the fuck is Waking actually?

T: It's being able to see Him. That's all. Any other differences are, well- I have this idea that it's because he doesn't belong in our reality so he fucks shit up.

A: Fair. C'mon, we prolly have time to watch another terrible musical before Mum makes us go to sleep.

Personally, I find that highly informative. Anyone have any thoughts? Other than "DONT TRUST TIKTOK". (I heard you the first time, JediZero.)

Ciao for now,
Ariadne

Fun times and other horror stories

Sorry for the lack of activity here, I went on holiday with some friends and forgot to queue a Kitten Monday. So if anyone's been worrying it's all good, honestly. I've just been chilling with Penny and all my other friends (yes, I have other friends!) at at of their beach-houses. Nothing much really happened. I Woke up at one point and Seth thought I was sick and told me to take a nap. It's fairly easy, I think, to pass Waking off as feeling tired or nauseated.

Weirdly, though, I have a clip of film on my iPod touch that I don't remember putting there. I'll upload it when I upload #two, which is coming up.

Ciao for now,
Ary

The mystery of the note that never was

Sorry guys, no kitten monday this week. First, I've had to start braving the Dreams and getting more than a few hours sleep per night because mock examinations are coming up, and although I'm less tired it means I'm getting disoriented and cranky all the time.

Second is about the notes.

First: I tried to photograph one of the notes (one of the WAKE UP ones, not in my handwriting) to show you guys in the weekend. Result:

What the fuck?

Notes from Tiktok appear to be just fine and one of the notes from whom I don't know the sender is also fine. Actually, while I'm on that topic, does anyone know the significance of the phrase "Try to believe"? I got a couple of notes with that written on it and I don't think they're from Tiktok or the same person as the "wake up" notes. Does anybody know?

Kitten Monday #11

LATE AGAIN. IT KEEPS HAPPENING. Sorry guys, I really haven't got my head in the game at the moment. I'm tired, I'm distracted, and I am seriously considering filming myself sleeping again just so I can catch whatever made me write all over my desk pad in the act.

Fuck this. Time for some kittens. And bunnies and puppies and other things that are cute. I need to take my mind off the fact that I may end up like Penny and Tiktok in the near future, which is an incredibly unsettling thought.

Understatement of the century...

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kittens kittens kittens.

While I'm posting, I got a weird note in my locker today. It wasn't from Tiktok (wrong handwriting) and the single sentence on it wasn't something I'd normally get in one of her notes. I'm going to run a few google searches and get back to you guys if I find anything.

Ciao for now,

Ary.

Kitten Monday #9

IT KEEPS HAPPENING

Unfortunately the computer I keep all my kittenpictures on is away getting repaired and I did not have the foresight to put them on a USB stick. Fortunately, I have a video (or two) for you all this time!

Click here!

And here!

I'll retrieve the notes (there are three) from my locker tomorrow night or Wednesday and either scan or photograph them to upload sometime before the weekend. I honestly have no idea what the crap the sender is trying to tell me because all I'm getting out of them is "BLUH BLUH CRYPTIC BULLSHIT". if you're trying to warn me, mystery admirer, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do so in a way I can understand!

Ciao for now,
Ariadne

Welp.

Got some really weird notes in my locker at school. I think they might be from Tiktok. There's none of her usual tiktoktiktoktiktoktiktok shtick though, so I do wonder if they're from somebody else.

I'll photograph them for you guys later this week, kay?

Ciao for now,
--Ariadne

Kitten Monday #8

welp. This is embarrassing. Like, really embarrassing.

Okay, so the day "stop" was posted was the day I had an absolute freak out, utterly flipped my shit, sleep deprived teenage girl seeing things all up the wazoo. Good news is that I'm okay. Mum took me to the doctor sunday and got me on some kind of herbal remedy which seems to have stopped me Dreaming for now. I dream but I don't Dream. See that capital letter? Gonna use it to distinguish between regular dreams (which I seem to be having now...) from the insane one.

Bad news is that I don't know if what I was freaking out over actually happened. I could have just gone crazy after a week solid on 3 hours per night.

Okay okay I know you guys aren't here for my sleep problems, you're here for the kittens. Here ya go:

Haven't heard from Tiktok in over a week. I hope she's okay. Cryptic as shit she may be but it's still a person running that blog.